he didn’t even realize i left! wth!
two days ago he bagged on me right after he said wed hang. yesterday he bagged on me and didn’t invite me. today he invited me then as soon as i got there left me alone to go spend time with his roomates. why am i in this mess.
im feeling so very alone lately. im crushing and hitting on everything that walks by with an unhealthy sense of desperateness. its like a horny dog that seeks intimacy instead of sex. men don’t know the difference.
feel like im in a dark place. but i guess thats nothing new.
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do you know that im gone
did you hear the silence as i fell away from you
is my absence noticed
or are you so fixated on your games and tv shows and friends
that it hasn’t even registered
theres a hole in your world.
will you know when im dead
will you come to my funeral and pretend to cry
will you ask about me months after
what ever happened to that girl
that used to sit on you floor
and stare at you
hoping you’d notice
before she was gone.
do you know that i’m here?